I firmly believe God talked to me directly through her, and I can still vividly remember the feeling of being yanked from drowning in a stormy sea, from nearly touching the sea bed to breathing the clean air again; the feeling of a huge and crushing weight suddenly being rolled away. I am uneducated, uninteresting, and just not worth it. I remember explaining this to a friend, who found it mystifying. I have to take him to school and pick him up because he is about to be kicked off of the bus. All emotions play a role in your wellbeing. I had no change in appetite, and no sleep problems getting out of bed was what was difficult. Despite this, depression may be indicated by an increased need for crying.
I have been what I recognize as depressed before. No matter how I try, I feel everyone else could care less if I disappeared. Everybody else seems to go through life smiling, succeeding at whatever they want to succeed in. I pretend to be happy and okay. I encourage you to go to a therapist. Instead of art on one end of the spectrum and science on the other… Think of the spectrum as a circle.
So I did with my mom I told her that I have been depressed for 2 years and I have felt like killing myself. I just feel too empty to feel any kind of love. We've all experience a moment in our lives where our body feels the need to release the raindrops from the storm inside of us. When an elephant is standing, tears run down the trunk, but when lying down, the flow is impeded and tears may be seen coming from the eyes. It's normal, and caused by changes in your hormone levels.
When I finally attempted to reach out I was shunned, ignored, and called a faker. I love to write, I love to doodle, and I love to read. I graduated high school a social outcast because of this. Yes, many tears were shed but after restoration God Himself called me and gave me the name Breaking the Barrier Ministry for Women. Sometimes those tears are a sign of it all being too much, but sometimes tears can be harmless, or even good! Holding back tears can also cause even more emotional problems, and if you don't cry out your feelings for a long time, it may lead to a severe mental breakdown.
If you are interested in a long, complex read about the self-soothing nature of crying, the following research paper is quite interesting. Writing down memories is also a good way to bring yourself to the point of tears. When I wake up everyday, after a short amount of sleep, getting out of bed seems like an enormous pointless task. I figured it was just me being stupid and overreacting. One part of the system creates tears.
This article reminds me of what awaits me once I return to pressure, bills and duties. I say ocean because I have a feeling that there are a lot of us rowing around aimlessly, not knowing where to go, who to talk with about what we are feeling, looking for that one thing that is going to show us the way back to shore. Have you ever thought of that? It may be that animals that are abused shed tears, from pain, although observations of this are rare. I have gone through so much crap in the past 6 months and you have just described me perfectly. Are you starting to feel your throat tighten a little? At a later date, think about whether or not these types of sexual activities feel safe to you. Still making my mom cry when she sees how little I have accomplished and how unmotivated my illness has made me. I am an author and creativity coach, so I wrote it particularly for writers and artists, but these signs could apply to anyone ~ I believe we are all creative in one way or another.
That instinct is often just emotion that is trying to find its way out. But when I am trying to heal, I cannot abide being around people who drain me emotionally, demanding too much of the time that I have reserved for myself. Co-worker i cared about died, my boss was let go from his position and just a few months later, i was. No joy, no sadness, I dont have any thoughts, my head is empty all the time. However, us humans are built just like the inside of a cage. Pain makes doing simple tasks harder. I start projects that I am happy while I am working on.
I never knew there was such a thing. § Two products donated for every package of U by Kotex ® purchased. One time I got horrible stage fright at school and cried in front of the class. Do your best to understand why they may have said or done whatever they did. A recent focus of research is the response people have to the chemical content of tears. So thank you and know that, as others have said, there are a lot of us out there who feel like you do, and we care even in our own sadness. There will be better days ahead I promise.