I feel like no one understands me and no one really cares. It feels like a lost dream now, and now I feel rudderless. Of course, my parents did not have the same information in 1980 as people do now. I have always known there was something different about me. I cannot find happiness in anything, I am only 43 yrs old and because of a congenital heart condition that has required me to under-go two open-heart surgeries every single one of my dreams that I have ever had has been taken away from me.
I often feel disrupted without any reason, other than I haye myself. Closing your eyes paired with taking several deep breaths will help you to calm down and focus on not crying. As the years continued to pass I noticed it became constant with the severity usually mild but occasionally worse. Why be 10k-20k underpaid without a degree when doing the same work as someone with a degree? I love my family, but I have no desire to talk to any of them. I wanted to ask you if you remember what came first, the fatigue or the anger? I feel like admitting to anyone that I feel empty and worried constantly would deem me as spoiled.
I feel distant and lonely most of the time. Vulnerability to depression has a very large genetic component. I go the the gym to make me feel better but I always seem to binge which makes me feel better but makes the situation worse. I so want to change, to get back to the me who woke looking forward to the new day. Hopefully we will both eventually find happiness within ourselves. I feel like the loser in the group. There are alot misconception in life.
It was fine at first you know, I mean it was really great. I can relate to almost all of the above because for the last 20 years the only time I am happy is when I am asleep and dreaming as soon as I open my eyes all I can think of is wanting to take my own life the days are long my body hurts constant headaches , cry at the drop of a pin rarely venture outside. There will always be someone willing to listen. They will be able to cheer you up. You should just stop putting up with a black face and people will like you better and stuff, I get really upset when I feel blamed from being this way or depressed or whatever. I have a wonderful hardworking husband and a beautiful daughter. I saw them wheel him out on a stretcher headed towards the ambulance.
When the glottis is opened, it makes it feel like there is a lump in your throat when you try to swallow. I feel nothing has changed even with a concoction mixture of different medicines. You're not alone and as awful as it sounds glad its not just me. I am a useless pathetic human being. In the past I used to laugh for spouts of ten to twenty minutes at a time and it was great. These is the short time you've got to get your heart pumping and feel you're alive. I felt so relieved to know that this was normal and I was just crying out for help.
Are you a writer or artist who gets depressed when you can't create the way you want? I partially cried at a doctors appointment today while I was in the room waiting for the doctor to come in. He can control some behavior but his energy is boiling over from the moment his eye open up in the morning. I just hope the future me will be happy. I am a complete useless person. It's possible too that the demands of your job are causing you stress.
If they are laughing at what you're wearing or your style, use the oldest trick in the book, and say: Thanks so much! Crying is a reaction caused by a heightened state of emotions and the relaxing effects of breathing can help you to stop yourself from crying. Especially since my shades make the room dark! Even if nobody else ever sees what you write, keeping a journal is an opportunity to express yourself. I had work to do but had the advantage of doing it when I wanted. Remembering the words and singing the song in your head will take your mind off whatever is bothering you. My father has been gone since 1996 and I feel like that was the last time in my life that I was cared for, and treated well. As Jo3 said, seeing your doctor and getting a referral for a psych is a good place to begin.
I feel like there is no point in life and I just want to spend my days rotting away in my bed until I die. I ordered mine online last time but shipping may cost money so I will buy one from st laurent mall some store that caries it I believe. Can people just keep romance to themselves. I became her bodyguard, her protector, her shield against the world, a stress ball to squeeze and a punching bag to punch when needed, of both my own volition and against it. First I will ask you to view your life as the waves in the sea, always moving up and down: at times everything does go smoothly in life and you're happy, and other times are tough, dark, and it's just not going how you want. Thanks for giving a term to it.